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SHES BACK! As i was talking with one of my friends last night, while getting attacked by mosquitos/enjoying what is left of the summer, he mentioned that he read my blog, honestly and i apologize, i forgot about this little gem. After our conversation I decided to bring back the wonderful insights of abbycashton. Along with the reintroduction of the documented verbiage for your pleasure, i would like to rant/vent on an issue that I feel many people my age can relate to, i would like to call it the "Confusing, overbearing, stressful, chaotic, what the hell am i doing 25's" To clarify, i am referring to my ripe age of 25 and the nonsense that comes with this age. In highschool you were told what to do, when to eat, you had a flow of friends you would hang out with on the weekends, you have your relationships that you pretend are mature and serious even though they are the furthest from, but at least you have some form of stability, dinners are cooked, uniforms are worn, its gold. College, you gain some independence, but lets be real, going to class, and picking out what to  wear to that night's party is not the most grueling thing in the world. Relationships again pretend to take on a slightly mature role, yet its still nonsense/head in the clouds "love", but again its consistent. Now after you leave college you still have the option of continuing your education for a year or 2. Now your hitting the dreaded 25's. If you are not at this fantastic ripe age, tread with caution, and enjoy your stability. I can say that I am at a point of what the h am i doing, should i be living where i am, am i doing enough to further my career, am i even in the right industry. Now that is just career wise, and that alone will keep you guessing, add on the -single,not dating, friends are already engaged/married/will be within the next year gig, and sprinkle a little splenda on top, and you got yourself a full fd up sundae. OH and lets add being broke, trying to prove to yourself that you can make it on your own, paying BILLS, RENT(because at 25 living at home is no bueno),gas  and having to buy the cheap toilet paper, its a freaking heartattack in a bottle. Its pure confusion at this point, and if i could fast forward my life just to take a 5 second screenshot and get any reassurance on my decisions would be great, but because that technological widget has not been discovered, i guess i am stuck in this crappy 25 year phase. I suggest Tums, the occasional nyquil shot for the night tossers, cheap alc, and good friends. Heres to getting to december and making the big 26 jump and wedging out of this cram!

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