Still 26 Post

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They say your twenties are when you are supposed to explore, fail, hit ultimate highs and lows and basically figure out who you are--what your supposed to be. I SAY this is nonsense and soul searching will never end, which is an exciting way to look at it, because who really wants to be 100% set in stone and defined by 30? 

The rapid searching of the soul of my 26 years of life have brought me to the following educated realizations:

I have realized I am the most indecisive person I know
I have a glare stare--could be compared to the b face scenario, but only periodically
I can “nap” for a straight four hours with no shame
I have a very low threshold when it comes to patience
I still crave the food of a 4 year old
I do not like being told what to do, or having constraints
I get heartburn from the tiniest spice--cant wait for the 200k+ heart burns to come
I have to push myself to even think of going on a date or pursuing anything from the opposite sex--so.much.work.
I have defined my goto style as bohoprepsleekdarkishhippy 
I have been, will be horrible with directions
I often shield myself from my surroundings
I wear my bun to tight
I hold in/shutout unwanted emotions
I now rely on coffee
I have very minimal purple in my current wardrobe
I/my feet/skin cannot handle heels--only wedges

AND i just bought a killer bed spread.

That is all.


-High5.

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