She said when I trusted love I dreamed in color too…

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Going with the flow is a characteristic/attitude that I feel has been permanently molded within my mindset, and really drives the way I approach many things. The upside of this is that you realize you really start to not give 2 F’s(pardon) about much, besides those things that have and will always matter to you. This allows you to work and progress solely on concrete and stable relationships and activities without fearing withdrawal, being letdown or failure.

The downfall rounds out to the exact same notion as described above. You teach yourself to focus on only what you know, those you have known, and become an almost secondary being around anything/anyone that hasn’t existed within your reality.

I firmly believe that every experience that has ever been had, has never been completely forgotten, but simply pushed away, so far in hopes it has no real effect on the present. Although this is not ideal its accurate and will determine what walls are forced down or firmly established. 

The gold that has come from this blog post is the kick in the ass it gives when I actually have to stop, think and dive into past events. When a stranger is able to determine a weakness or flaw that you once thought was tucked away, it’s when you realize it is a flaw. You also become more resistant to fix it for someone else or see any worth in doing so.

I thoroughly hope you enjoy this blog of dibbling and dabbling a pile of bs and leave with clarity and a clear head for the future (joke).

-Peace B’s.
ACA

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