Forever Fam

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I think it’s quite easy to think selfishly whenever something good happens to you. Although there is the pleasure in knowing you accomplished what you set to do, we have to realize that we didn’t get where we are today, without the opinions, rules, moldings, and love of those who did not decide if they were going to be in your lives or really have a choice, but they did decide to put themselves aside, constantly, and ensure you were taken care of.  

I was fortunate enough to be brought into an amazing family.  I was raised by two parents who have never been anything other then in love with each other. I have/had not 1, 2 but 3 grandmothers, 2 great grandmothers, and 2 grandfathers, all whom I created and still have strong relationships with. I was constantly around cousins, aunts, uncles and never went a day without being told I was loved and knowing I had people on my side. I  was also given the best bond you can ever experience, in that of having a sibling.

I try to really take a step back once and a while and evaluate where things are and where I want them to be.  I am currently liking where things are and am really starting to figure what my groove is, and sketching through the chaos. I know I wouldn’t be me, or here, or understand what it is and feels like to be happy without them. I wanted to dedicate this blog to the Ashtons, Rosss, Debackers, Achilles, Pedanos, Mertzs and simply state how blessed I am to have everyone of you in my life, and to say thank you for tagging me along.


Night B’s.


AcA

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