Love You To Here, There And Everywhere

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I think the main reason I continue to compile and post these grammatically error-ed(aware its not a word, Andrew) run-on, sarcasticish, opinionated, pre/post tool bag, f-up & highest moments posts are honestly because it’s a clean cut and selfish way to vent and document the chaos. 

It’s also because I’ve come to realize that I am probably the worst when it comes to saying exactly what I mean or want to mean, which then leads to me doing and saying the complete opposite or what was supposed to be said or reacting as awkwardly as a human can possibly react. 

So like giving a high five after a first kiss or say becoming a defensive B and spitting fire with your sailor mouth or giving a thumbs up to a compliment, these are all items I suggest straying away from—based on true life events. 

So I Truly have tried to wrap my head around what little piece of flesh or connector I am missing in that brain of mine that disables this, it would be easy to dedicate it to getting played like the 4th string on a violin in a string quartette in my prior youth, but I’ve come to realize that no one gives an f about that, it’s how you are directly with them, now, that matters. 

(Also, if i were able to edit my conversations before they came out of my mouth, like I’m doing now, and delete, and look up synonyms/antonyms, like i would probably be married 3x, 9 kids, have a network of pals to the sky, living separate lives without the husbands realizing I’m married to 2 others, because I’d be that kickA @ relationships.) BUT YOU CANT. 

So on this lovely Easter Holiday I really wanted to give a virtual hug/kiss/highfive(mygoto^) thank you to those who came running when others ran away. It’s been a hell of a start to 2016, and I have to say that I’m not perfect, in any way, but I think it’s worthwhile for anyone to mention when they truly begin to get their head out of their own A and work on themselves because its the only way you can grow. 

Everyone is working on themselves, some struggle more, others have already struggled. I think now more than ever we need to remember to be there for one another, regardless of what we believe in, what we celebrate, who we’re in love with, our political opinion, the clothes we’re wearing or the # in our bank account. Use these differences to create and embrace the chaos, and hold on together. 

-Also remember to tell em you love them. 

Xoxo

-ACA

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