Let Me Tell You About my Brother

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As I’m sitting here on the morning of June 10th, 2019, I find myself reminiscing on this day, and trying to think what little Abby, at 3 years old, was feeling, thinking, wearing, on the day you were brought home.

Knowing myself, I’m sure there was a SLIGHT WTF is this little guy thinking, entering my only-child life, coming in and creating havoc among our 3 person family, because c’mon at 3, its okay to be a little selfish :)

ANYWAYS, knowing myself, that all changed, the second I saw you. The second I held you, I knew that you were meant for us, our family wasn’t complete without you in it, and you gave me the best gift in the world, of being your big sister.

At 3 years old, I didn’t understand the significance of this gift you gave me. I now had someone to lug around, to dress up, play school with, someone to play roller hockey in the basement with, someone to eat dinners and lunches, and go to the beach with.

I didn’t understand how lucky I was to have you as I was growing up, because it was just something that was normal, I didn’t know anything else, and it was just us, figuring out this life together.

Now, at the ripe age of 31, I now truly understand how blessed I am to have you.

Alex, you have taught me to take life day by day, to enjoy the little moments we are given. You have this ease of life, that is so easily inherited and is contagious to all those in your life. You create happiness by just being you and that in itself is something that is rare.

You are the only person that can make me feel at ease in a way that no one else can and at times I forget I’m the big sister, and your the little brother.

You gave me the treasure of having a sibling, and a bond that is so special, so strong, a bond that you can count on, knowing we will always be Abby and Alex, and that I can never repay you for.

Being your sister has been the biggest accomplishment in my life thus far, it’s something I will never hold lightly, and am constantly reminded, every day, but this day especially how blessed I am, and everyone else is to have you.

I love you,

Ab.

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