Transition Translation

 

SO its been a while, good ole blog of mine, its been a while since I’ve put my thoughts to “paper” or have honestly had the energy or felt the right moment to do so. This blog was started when I went on my first independent adventure. I needed an outlet to vent, to and engage with those I was far from, to try and not only convey the adventure I was on but to in a sense figure it out in a way of writing out my thoughts that were spiraling inside of this beautiful mind of mine. 

To go full circle, I am so thankful for every self that has taken the time to sit and write, my posts, are unique, each thought conveying a different perspective, shift, time in my life. You truly don’t see how you’ve changed, grown, taken steps back, matured and fought until you're able to read past writings. I am thankful to myself for keeping my story alive, in every aspect, because that is what I feel I am here to do, what I am supposed to share. My story. 

There are times that we are all searching, struggling, asking what the bigger picture is, and in those times that we aren’t doing that, we embrace the contentment we feel with the current phase of our lives, we try to avoid any crumbling of that life. Why is it so easy to try and stay put, stay hidden from opportunity, or embrace what is coined unrealistic? That thought has had me pondering its impact on who I truly want to be. 

Am I basing my “wants” on what others are doing? Am I impacting my ideas of success and contentment on the understanding that there is only one way to achieve these type of feelings? When does one know they are where they should be, or even if they should be there with someone else? Why do we put the consistent pressure on figuring it all out? The reality of the situation is, its too much to put on our shoulders.

 I don’t think were meant to carry such agonizing uncertainty, I don’t think were here to question ourselves, or deny who and what we truly are. I have come to learn that life is meant to be lived, with the expectation that things will not look the way that you originally thought it would. There will be transitions, there will be loss, there will be turns down one way roads, that you literally force yourself down knowing the direction is quite opposite of what you should be taking. But why is this something to coward from? 

The strength lies in those moments when you pivot, adjust, and embrace the opportunity of the unknown. That is where growth happens and that is where a beautiful story worth telling will develop. I think the fear of the unknown, can be counteracted as the courage to face what you’re supposed to know. To me fear is only present when you coward to the potential outcome, when you give up, and turn back to what you’ve known you’re entire life to only experience the mundane colorless path you were not meant to live. 

Sometimes I write to express humor, sometimes I write to express sadness, heartbreaks, sometimes I write to use my voice, and other times I write just to write, to compile different thoughts, at different points of my life, and this is just that. A path of transition, pivoting, and surrendering, has been not only the most challenging, but I have come to find it’s one of the most beautiful paths I have been and will continue to be on yet.

Tell them you love them

Xo

Abby C